Saturday, October 1, 2011

The Proposal (not a movie review)


Though I resemble Ryan Reynolds a bit, this is not about his movie with Sandra Bullock. This is about me and my own Sandra Bullock, who I tell you, is a lot prettier than the award winning actress.

Exactly a month ago, I had asked her if she wanted to marry me.  It was one of those romantic scenes in movies you see – fine dining, we were in a river cruise, and soothing music in the background. Damn, there were even fireworks (but I didn’t plan it, it was the end of Ramadan, so the timing was great). However, none of those mattered as even the romance in the air succumbed to the chutzpah of silence. I tell you, when you do things like that only once your entire life, all the months (perhaps years) you prepared for it will all dissolve into nothing. The only thing that will remain is silence, and (in my case) the hope that it end soon, no matter what the result is.
Bateaux Cruise, Dubai
At that time, I felt two things:

1.       1.  Afraid that I was too corny or unorthodox when I popped the question and
2.       2.  Afraid that I may have a heart attack. I was palpitating, and I can literally hear my heart pounding. For a good 30 seconds, I thought I only breathed in once.

So what’s the verdict?



She answered yes. And we’re getting married.

God has been infinitely good to me.  There are times I feel that I’m not worthy of his blessings. But they just keep pouring. Just like that most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. She didn’t just pass by. She didn’t just smile.  And she didn’t just say hello.

She loved me. And beyond the exchange of vows, rings, and I do’s, she will love me forever.

Ms. Rodelyn Pineda, soon to be Mrs. Javier

Say a decade back, I didn’t believe in romantic love. All the while, I thought love is just about caring for people you love. But now I am able to know the difference between platonic love and romance. It’s the feeling of you writing a novel about it and after people read it, they would smile on their sleep. As a college paper writer/poet, I rarely delve in the subject of love in my literary pieces. I always find that subject corny, mushy, and cliché. But now, love would always be present, not only in my journal or blog entries, but in everything I do, or none of them would ever be complete without it.

Well, when she came, I became complete.

- Champ 10/1/2012


I honestly  thought that she was a lot happier because I asked than I was happy because she accepted. hehehe

Monday, July 18, 2011

Tong-its, atbp.

Tong-Its, et al.

We play Tong-its almost every night. This Filipino poker-like game has been one my few addictions ever since my early teens. The first time I learned it was during one Christmas vacation when I have all the money to bet against my Mom and my brother, Jason, just to learn how to double your money if you are lucky. I would sing at night (not as a professional singer, but a caroler) and I will play in the morning, just before lunchtime. On the very first day I played – believe it or not, I won 18 pesos – 90% of my total capital (20 pesos – just in case you feel lazy to compute).  The second day, I still won. On the third day, after thinking that at long last, I had found something I would be proud of not losing ever,  I lost – and it had been that way until I learned something very, very, very important in life – don’t always count on luck.
I actually won this round, can you believe that?

(From L-R) Jonathan, ME, Marlon, Rowel

Isang araw nitong 2010, napag-tripan namin ni kuya na mag-Poker. Actually, I really didn’t know how to play it. The last time I played (back in 2007 in Iraq), I was having more trouble trying to hide my ignorance of the game than winning. Well I lost there small time – about 40 to 60 bucks. That time with kuya, I thought I was going to learn and would be at ease and won’t have to exert effort of faking a good hand (though I really don’t know if I DO have a good hand). But I was wrong. Learning the game cost me 300 bucks (can you believe that?). But my kuya was good to his younger brother and understood that his younger was just learning the game. He gave his younger brother $100 back and pinangalat sa buong opisina namin ang aking pagkatalo... Lesson learned: Never gamble against your brother.
So, I gambled against my ‘other’ officemates, bosses included. On the second time I played, I won $20. Third night – our country manager lost his 100 bucks to me, along with 50 bucks more from the others.  Fourth night I played, still won more than a hundred. This time, I already regained what I lost to my brother. On our succeeding games, I still won some more, until one night, for the first second time since I learned Poker by heart, I lost $20. Then I stopped
I stopped because I thought that my winning streak has come to an end and that it was a signal that a series of unfortunate events (meaning, mga gabing talunan) has commenced and that I will just find myself addicted to the game because I will always aim to regain what I lost the previous night. And you know how I did it? Simple, I just made an accounting of my “Poker” transactions ever since that battle against my kuya:

Beginning Balance:                                     $0

Add: Revenues from Poker
Day 1 (Donation Revenue)          $100
Day 2                                       $20
Day 3                                       $150
Day 4                                       $130
Day 5                                       $80
Day 6                                       $110                             $590

Less: Losses from Poker
Day 1 /with Kuya                      $300
Day 7                                       $20                             ($320)

Ending Balance:                                       $270


So in 1 week, I was able to make $270.00 out of Poker. On Friday, I went to Eggers PX (a military exchange store in Kabul) and bought a brand new X-Box 360 120gb with Kinect Sensors. Nice gaming console and at a good price too. $299.00 – just added 29 bucks to my winnings.

Well, I thought that from zero balance to $270 is not bad. Also, if I already thought I was gonna lose more, then I’m ought to lose more. So I decided to stop $270. But this thinking wasn’t the one that stopped me from playing poker.

It was a freaking X-Box videogame that got me really hooked enough to forget Poker and guess what - shower. Yes, even taking a shower gets compromised with my addictions. There’s only one addiction that motivates me to spend more time in the shower room – and that is my addiction to my girlfriend.

Pero since all videogames ay may katapusan (kung hindi man nakakasawa), nawala rin ang addiction ko sa mga ito. Natapos ko ang Naruto Shippuden pati na rin ang Assasins Creeday mali, nagsawa lng pala ako sa Assassin’s Creed – so sa Naruto lang pala talaga ako na-adik. Kaso, tinapos na namin ni Kuya yung storymode, eh sawa na sya mag laro ng 2 player versus, tapos si Ricky naman (yung isa naming kasama sa work) eh hindi naman ganon ka husay (walang challenge), hindi na rin ako naglaro. Nawala din ang addiction ko.

Almost all addictions leave our bodies, our minds, our hearts at a certain point in time. It may be when we don’t find happiness in them any longer, or when we no longer find reasons to do them. That’s why I believe, that it is utterly important to choose our addictions well – for sometimes they leave indelible marks on our personalities that make us regret for the rest of our lives. Some addictions just destroy us, take away our dreams, and lead us to our fall. Others would create us and bring us to the realization of our dreams. Discernment and discipline are the keys. I have always remembered that the worst addiction makes us feel good of ourselves, so good that we no longer feel that we are already crashing on hard ground.

Now, I am back to playing tong-its. And I have new playmates! Now that my brother was stranded in the PI for a long time, I get to play with new people in Project Controls department. I’ve known them for years and have been friends or acquaintances. It was good playing Tong-its with them. But unlike before, where I think of gambling as a way to quickly double your money, I think of it as a past time. With good friends playing with me, I always enjoy even if I lose. I don’t do accounting equation anymore, I just enjoy the company. When you have Rowel, Jonathan and Marlon playing with you, you’ll just laugh big time.

No dull moment in a Tong-its Night...

Playing Tong its with my Girlfriend's family

I was losing here.. at first

Kailangan na nilang magtulong kasi nauubos ko na ang pera nila bwahahahah...
Tong-its will be one of those addictions that will come and go. And I would even say that I am not addicted to it right now. I am addicted to the good company I have with friends and do hope that this addiction never ends – just as my addiction to God, to my girlfriend and to my family will never be suppressed.